Wow! Is It Hot Enough?

Today has not turned out like I expected it to. Appointments were changed and my plans for the day are all different now, but that is okay. I have been getting a lot done in between. I love looking at a closet just after I cleaned it out and organized it. Oh it won't stay that way long but just for a day to know where things are is awesome! I have bread rising ( thank goodness for a/c) and it smells yummy. Dinner is in the crock pot, so not much cooking to do tonight. I find if I rest a bit in between my chores I do just fine and am not short of breath at all. It has been a good day so far. I like days like this. Nothing exciting happening, but things going fairly smoothly, sun shining and getting  some little things I usually put off done feels good.

Thankful on Friday

I saw another blog that had what they were grateful for posted each Friday. So here goes

• My son Stefan who takes over and cares for Ryan when I have been in the hospital ( not his favorite thing to do)
• My daughter Katie for giving me my beautiful grandchildren. 
• Sovin my grandson who makes me laugh and is oh so great to cuddle with
• My home teacher and friends Aaron and Phil, who are so generous with their time
• My son Ryan, who usually wakes in the morning and comes to find me , smiling and ready for a hug
• Our Bishop who has gone out of his way to help us through all of this
• My friends who have been here through parts of this journey and encouraged and prayed for me
• Having enough, enough food, a home, clothing and  things that we could do without but sure make life nicer
• Most of all my Faith, without my faith in God this life would be meaningless

It Is Funny How

When things are going okay I don't feel the need to write much. Well things have not been as smooth as I would like of late so here I am again. I am dealing with things okay so far. It is amazing what prayer and a Priesthood blessing will do for you.
The lung mass is still there and has changed some in appearance. That along with some other symptoms had me in the hospital a week and now heading for another Broncoscopy and biopsy. It looks like it is one of two things, Bronchoalveolar Cancer or something called Right Middle Lobe Syndrome. The good news is that if it is cancer it is a slow growing form and it is not in my lymph nodes as of yet. Right middle lobe syndrome sounds like it will be an ongoing thing too. Both of these are likely aggravated by the many years I smoked. Please if you are reading this and smoke............QUIT NOW. I quit before this happened but I sure wish I had never smoked at all. You never think these things can happen to you. But they do.
I am trying to stay busy and keep this off my mind but it is hard. I am trying not to worry about the huge bills I am making with all of this. I kind of feel like I cannot afford to be alive at times. But deep down I know that Heavenly Father is looking after me as he always does and things will work out. He has never failed me so no matter what happens , if I face more illness or not I can handle it. I will learn whatever lesson this is meant to teach me.  The prayers and efforts of my friends and my church family continue to bring me comfort. I may be poor in material things but in the things that matter I am very rich.

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Sovin

Resolutions

Okay I have a long list again this year. I always do. My way of thinking it that if I make lots of promises to myself I will at least achieve some of them. Last year I only made a few. The big one was to quit smoking for good and I truly have done that. I quit before the lung mass was found and when that happened I lost all desire to return to smoking. Every time I go to the store and see people paying so much for cigarettes I am even happier I made that change! Now what is it going to take to get me to lose all these extra pounds and become more active? Well I have a different approach this time around so I think I will be successful in that. I will write a bit about that here.

Two other resolutions that are very important to me are to really finish the Book of Mormon study I started and to really be aware of opportunities to serve. I think I have missed a lot of chances to make a difference in other people’s lives because I have been too wrapped up in me and my problems to notice what is happening in other people‘s lives. . I really hope I can change that this year more than anything else.

One more resolution that will be a fun one I think, is to use my creativity more. I think about doing all sorts of things but it rarely gets further than thinking, I will write about that here too. It may be cooking, crochet, sewing or crafts. I guess I will just see where it takes me.

So here is to a great 2010, making the right changes and sticking with them!

Happy New Year!!!

I Know

there are just a very few friends that read this but you are all people who have stood by me during the challenges I have faced this fall. Thank God for you all. You have made my life so much easier, my faith so much stronger and really have been my strength here on earth. Thank you and Merry Christmas!