A Beautiful Day

I love the sunshine!!!!!!!!!! It is giving me a little energy that I was having a hard time mustering. I hung clothes out on the line and plan another load yet. The breeze is enough that they should dry fast. I remember hanging clothes with my mother when I was small and we lived in the desert. It seemed as soon as one was hung and dried that the last was ready to come down. I am not happy the dryer died ,but I sure love that fresh smell of clothes off the line.

My breathing seems to be getting worse again so I am stepping up the treatments. I think I will have to use the oxygen again too. Just with activity though.

I still have mountains of paperwork to finish for social security. A lot of it is information I already gave them once. I also have to call them now every time I have a Doctors visit or hospitalization. I sincerely hope they are working on things on their end. I do not feel entitled to benefits but it is part of what we pay social security for when we are working. Though I have not worked recently, I usually worked at least two jobs when I was younger and sometimes three, so I did pay lots of social security. Regardless of the slow system I feel very grateful that there is any program at all. In many countries I simply would have died without any treatment. The tumor they removed in April would have killed me by now had it not been removed. I am so grateful to be alive even with the rough times. I know Heavenly Father has a plan for me...............it simply would not make sense if He did not. So I guess much of my faith is based on common sense. There has to be a purpose for life and what we enjoy and what we endure.

Hooray!

My daughter and grandson surprised me with a visit today! I was so happy to spend time with them. He is growing into such a little man! I had a blast playing with him and visiting with Katie. Family is awesome to have around!

I Feel Okay Again!

Yeah! I am tired but otherwise good again. What a relief. So I plan to do a bit, rest a bit , on and off today and see if I can actually accomplish anything. I want to clean this place top to bottom before my Mom comes to visit and at this rate it will take me until she gets here in July to do it.
There are things I wish I could fix before she gets here but she will just have to understand the lack of funds and make do like we do! She is not real picky, so I think she will be okay.
I am really excited about seeing her. Something to look forward to! After that, I hope to go to the temple in September or October when Chemo is done.
Still really miss my grandchildren and hope they visit soon, or I am able to get there.

Almost Human Again!

I went and had fluids and meds at the hospital last night and feel a little better! I won't wait that long if I don't have to again. They suggested I stay over night but that was not possible but I think last night was enough. I can eat a little and drink a little even though nothing really sounds that great. I will be so glad when this is over!

Trying to Stay Home

If I am not better tomorrow I will have to go get fluids at the hospital. I was able to hold down half a banana and a few sips of sports drink just now, so hope that is the first sign of things getting better. I sure appreciate the cast iron stomach I used to have now! ON the good side I am sure I am losing some weight.

Not So Good

I keep feeling worse but have hopes it will let up soon. I am not accomplishing anything this way. I have seen more tv this weekend than I ever ever have! I have had my fill! I am determined to feel better tomorrow!

Today

I watched the men finish the carpeting in the living room with full intentions of putting all the little stuff back myself. Instead I fell asleep and just now woke. Wow, this time the chemo is really packing a wallop. Also a bottle of my anti nausea meds became lost in the moving of things and I absolutely cannot find it. Not good. Otherwise things are okay at our house. Even with not feeling good physically I am felling better emotionally and spiritually which is much more important. With hopes of accomplishing much more tomorrow I am off to watch some tv and fall asleep again!