I have peace today. Prayer and then a good night's sleep seems to have washed away most of the anger. They will biopsy the new spots in my left lung this coming week. If they are malignant I will be stage four lung cancer and surgery will not be done. They may do chemotherapy and radiation. If they are benign, they will remove two thirds of my lung on the 31st. That would be stage one and I would have a better chance of living longer.
I hope I have a long time left here but am prepared to accept what comes. I know how I want to spend my time and with who. I am going to try not to waste anymore time in anger and bitterness.