I Was Touched

by the kindness of a stranger I will never meet today. A woman from the Social Security Disability Office setting up my phone interview went out of her way to be helpful. None of the usual bureaucracy or attitude. After hearing of my situation she said "I am not supposed to do next day appointments but I am going to for you". She then ended our conversation after giving me some more information with this. "I'll be praying for you hon".. And I believe she will. I seem to find the hand of God everywhere I look of late. I know he will bless that kind woman too.

Wow

Do I feel good today! I started my round of corticosteroids and it really gave me a boost. I can breathe and walk and do dishes, and pickup. These are not the kind of steroids that will give me big muscles! They do have some yucky side effects that I am hoping to avoid though.
It is amazing what a little energy can do for your attitude. I am not over doing................but it sure is good to not feel useless!

Rest

So my body has been telling me to rest today. ALL DAY LONG! I don't want to rest because I have a lot of things to do! I sure wish my body was more reasonable about when it needed rest and was able to spread it out a bit more.

I did not do much yesterday. I rode in a car and visited the doctor and that is about it! Not a lot of effort involved there. So now I am attempting to do a little laundry and the bulletin without needing a nap in between. This is ridiculous! I have to work on my stamina!

Otherwise it has been a good day as was yesterday. The Doctor  gave me encouraging news and I had great company to travel with. Life is still pretty good!

Bucket List

I think everyone should have one, not just people that are ill. I have had one in my head for some time, but recently my wants have changed and what I am physically able to do has too, so here is Bucket List part one!

• I want to spend the day at Wilson Lake with my family, have a picnic, swim, watch the kids play and so on.
• As soon as my health is stable enough I want to visit the temple as often as possible. It was one of the greatest experiences of my life and I am so anxious to go again.
• I want to visit Nauvoo! This is something I have wanted for about 4 or 5 years now. 
• I want to plant vegetables and flowers in my yard and make it pretty.
• I would like to visit my mother in Indianapolis. I have not seen her in many years, though we talk often on the phone.
• I would like to once and for all finish reading the Book of Mormon, D and C and Pearl of Great Price.
• I want to read the bible cover to cover.
• When I have finished the two above  I want to start all over because I know I will get more out of it each time I read them.
• I want to find a way to do service that is important and meaningful.
• I want to keep depression and anxiety out of my life and be excited about each day.

That's all I have for today, more to follow!

Roller Coaster

It is a bit of a Roller coaster with this illness. On Monday I was told that some of the spots in my left lung that were not biopsied may be cancers too. If so that is a seperate cancer from the one they took out. There is a long explanation I will not waste typing here.They will watch them carefully. I was also told my lungs may not get better and the oxygen may be permanent. On the good side, it is a very very slow growing cancer, so even if it is I have a good amount of time ahead of me. How much , who knows. But then who knows if they will be hit by a bus tomorrow? I think I am blessed to be able to work on the things I need to change about myself now. I have the chance to be a better Mom, friend and daughter. I have the chance to learn more about our Savior and hopefully become a little more like him. As I sit warm and comfortable in my little home tonight I am so thankful for all the blessings I have. The kindness and generosity of my friends and the love they show to me has helped me so much. I am so rich in the stuff that counts!!!!!!!!!!!

Another Beautiful Day

I was out walking...........though it was with the home care company man to monitor my oxygen saturation. Unfortunately I have to use it with exercise and for shortness of breath at home. They set me up with a outfit that fills small tanks right at home so it won't be that much of a hassle I guess. I think it will help with my fatigue so that is a good thing. Nothing much else new here. I sure like the weather.

Beautiful Sunday

I am feeling pretty good. After a great Fast and testimony meeting today I am filled with the spirit. The emotional testimonies and the discussion of the struggles we all have really make you feel a part. You realize that you are much more like everyone else that you sometimes think. I am so grateful for the Gospel, the chance I have to renew my covenants with the Lord and the the beautiful friends I have. I am so blessed.