2 AM

Yep 2 AM! I so want to go to sleep but my mind is racing. Wondering...... what the week will bring. Why a cat scan taken in 2007 showed a very small mass but somehow it was missed and I was never told about it and it was never investigated. Why my medical coverage is ending just when I need it most. (Oct 31) Why the clinic, the doctors and receptionists I speak to don't feel the urgency of this. I know I can handle this if I can just keep my mind from focusing on these things that I cannot change. I wish I had an off switch!